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Daniel's Gone Chapter 1 Daniel sat in his office with the
lights out and his head resting on the back of his chair. The last time he had looked at his watch it
was somewhere after 0200 hours, he had been here all night, again. This time though it was not work that had
kept him here, but rather absence of a desire to leave. The latest discovery he had made had been
told to him that afternoon…and he was neither happy nor saddened by it. Daniel had been having muscle
spasms in and various other oddities happening to his body for the past few
months, but he kept it to himself because he really did not want to spend time
in the infirmary. After waking up a few
days ago with tears of blood, he had sought out a private physician and a
myriad of tests had been run...all of it had been paid for out of his own
pocket because he did not want his insurance or Dr. Lam to find out. He had sworn the doctor that saw him to
secrecy over the results, telling him that he expected patient-doctor
confidentiality to be kept. The results
of the testing had been triple checked before the news had been given to him
that afternoon. Only a short time ago, Oma had come
to him and talked to him about ascending.
Daniel had politely told her that he could not do it, that the idea of
ascending held no wonder for him. She
had disappeared back to where-ever she went after having sighed deeply and told
him the offer stood if he should change his mind. Daniel knew that she knew that he would not
break the rules again if he did take it because there was nothing left to break
the rules for. All of Earth’s enemies
were defeated, and Samantha was no longer there to hold out hope for…she was
with Sighing, Daniel pulled his glasses
off and pitched them onto his desk, not even caring that they bounced off and
landed somewhere on the other side. All
day he had just sat here, nobody coming to see him and nobody calling for
him. This is what life came down to
after giving his heart, soul, and blood to save everyone…he was sitting alone. After everything he had seen, after
everything he had done, he was now soul weary and welcomed the news of his
pending death. According to the lab results, he
did not have but maybe a few months at most left. The tests had been conclusive, somehow he had
a very advanced neurological degeneration happening. The doctor had told him that never had such a
progressive form of it been seen, but Daniel really didn’t care. Daniel had simply told the doctor thank you
for the news and to keep everything sealed.
The doctor had tried to tell him that they could try a few different
treatment options, but Daniel had not been interested in prolonging the
inevitable. Cameron Mitchell and Samantha
Carter had both been together for about a month now. Since SG1 had been retired from field service,
they had chosen to pursue a relationship, destroying the last thread that had
kept Daniel going…being with Sam.
Sighing explosively, Daniel felt the muscles in his body all spasm as if
being hit with an electric charge. He
had become so use to this that he did not cry out, he just waited for it to
end…one way or the other. After several
moments, the spasms passed and he opened his eyes to see one very pissed off
Dr. Lam starring at him, oh hell. “So, how long did you think you
could things hidden from me?” Carolyn
all but screamed at him. “What are you talking about? What are you doing here?” Daniel asked playing as innocent as he could. “What am I talking about? Don’t you dare try to play stupid or innocent
with me Dr. Jackson…we both know that ship doesn’t float!” Lam practically
screeched in irritation and rage. “A
flag came up from some lab tests recently run at one of the facilities in With his head sinking back against
the chair, Daniel took a moment to sigh…damn the military and their watchful
eye of anything dealing with anyone connected to them. “What do you want me to say, Carolyn; I
wanted to keep it private.” Seeing the look of desolation and
acceptance in Daniel’s eyes and the slump of his posture, Dr. Lam found the air
instantly let out of her anger. “Daniel,
why didn’t you come to me?” she pleaded in a soft, concerned voice. “Because, it
doesn’t matter anymore.” Daniel
said simply while shrugging. “With
everything I have been through, everything that I have seen happen, this was
inevitable.” “You mean that you are just going
to accept it and not try and do anything?” Lam asked incredulously. “Yes.” Daniel stated. “I do not want to take meds that may or may
not work. Stuff that will probably cause
me to be sicker than what I am already; at least I can hide and disguise what
is happening to me now. If I start on
some of those medicines, you and I both know that they will incapacitate me.” Nodding her head in understanding
Lam could not help the sniffles that started or the tears that started
flowing. “Why are you just giving up
though Daniel? I have never known you to
just give up.” “Everything is done.” Daniel said easily. “The Goa’uld, the Replicators, the Ori, the Wraith, the Lucian Knowing what Daniel was not saying,
because Dr. Lam heard all of the choice gossip where she spent her days, she
looking up into his eyes. “Daniel, you
are still cared for and loved by many…don’t give up just because…” Daniel held up his hand to stop
what Carolyn was about to say. “Carolyn,
please do not go there. That had little
if anything to do with my current choice, and I would not care to discuss it
any more.” Seeing and hearing that as being
told to leave, Carolyn sighed and stood up to leave. “Daniel, if…if you need anything, do not
hesitate to call or come by.” With that,
she turned and left. Pushing himself up out of his
chair, Daniel grabbed his car keys, his jacket, and the folder on his desk and
headed out of his office. Taking a quick
look back, he shook his head and sighed.
He had been doing this for about 12 years; it was time to call it game
over. Going to the elevator, he punched
the call button and waited for the car to arrive to take it to his next
destination. As the elevator car arrived
and the door opened, Daniel stepped in and punched level 27; he did not pay
attention to who ever was already in it. Sgt. Harriman could tell by the
look on Dr. Jackson’s face that something was up and it could not be good. Dr. Jackson looked completely defeated and
lost in thought. Feeling concerned but
knowing that the man in front of him preferred his privacy, Walter kept his
thoughts to himself…but something was definitely not right. He waited for several seconds after Daniel
had walked down the hallway before exiting himself. He watched in silence from the control room
doorway as he Dr. Jackson walked into General Landry’s office and then back out
and headed to the elevator. Waiting until Dr. Jackson was once
again in the elevator and gone, Walter walked into the General’s office and
spotted the red folder on the desk.
Opening it to determine if it was something that he should file or not,
Walter stopped in shock at seeing the single sheet of paper that was
inside. He had better start making some
calls. Daniel was in the second elevator
to the surface when another muscle spasm racked his body. This time, Daniel watched in amazement as his
hand seemed to fade out and become translucent.
Oh boy, this was definitely more than what that doctor and those lab
techs had thought. This was more than a
simple neurological issue…he was cascading.
That thought brought an odd sense of finality to things; at least he
would not have to worry about being buried or anything. An SF watching the security monitors
exclaimed seeing something odd happen in elevator 1 and immediately called down
to the infirmary to make a report of what he saw. After
signing out of the mountain and making it home without another cascade event,
Daniel parked his car in the garage and went inside. Looking around the house, Daniel felt like
everything that needed to be done there was.
He had already labeled things with tags on whom they were to go to, or
what museums. Pulling a folder out of
his home-office desk and placing on the entry way table, Daniel made him self
ready for bed. Maybe tonight he would
sleep in the blue silk pajamas that Sam had bought for him last Christmas…yeah,
that seemed fitting. Chapter 2 Samantha
Carter was asleep in the arms of her lover, Cameron Mitchell, with the phone on
her cell phone started ringing. Rustling
herself up from a pleasant dream, Sam reached over and looked at the display on
the phone. Seeing that it was the SGC
calling Sam flipped open the phone and answered, “Colonel Carter.” The man to her left awoke from his slumber
and listened to his lover as she answered the phone. “Colonel,
this is Sgt. Harriman.” Walter spoke
into the phone. “I know this is highly
irregular ma’am, but I wanted to let you know that Dr. Jackson just turned in
his resignation.” “Oh god, what…when…why?”
Samantha demanded over the phone in shock that was quickly turning to
anger. Hearing his lover becoming upset,
Cameron sat up in bed looking worried. “The letter
did not say why ma’am, just that he was turning in his resignation effective
immediately.” Sgt. Harriman
replied. “General Landry was not in to
receive it, I saw Dr. Jackson go into his office about 0230 this morning and
then leave. I thought it odd so I went
in and found the letter in a folder on the General’s desk. I called you because I could not reach
Colonel Mitchell at his home and I felt someone of SG1 should be
informed…ma’am, he looked to be depressed when he left.” “Thanks
Walter.” Sam said throwing the blankets
back and jumping out of bed. “I will
look into this right away.” Sam hung up
her phone starting to pull on the clothes from the night before. “Sam, what
is going on?” “It’s
Daniel…he just turned in his resignation.”
Sam said feeling hurt and angry.
“That was Walter, he said that he saw Daniel go into the General’s
office and leave immediately after, this was at 0230. God, he said that Daniel was depressed.” Jumping out
of bed and pulling on his own clothes, Dr. Lam
slammed the phone down on the receiver and rushed out of the infirmary towards
the elevator. If what the SF had just
reported to her was true, she had better get to Daniel’s place quickly. She knew that he did not want to fight this
thing, but maybe she could change his mind and help. Damn, she should have known that things were
worse than what he had admitted to. What
was it that General O’Neill had always said, “If Daniel admits to feeling
bad…it is a hundred times worse.” Double
damn. Hearing the pounding of feet
behind her, Carolyn knew that one of the orderlies on duty was following her. Reaching
the elevator and punching the button to go up, Lam turned to the orderly
following her and informed him that they were headed to Dr. Jackson’s on an
emergency. She was relieved to see that
he had grabbed one of the medical duffels on his way out…man was she losing her
head. Dr. Lam was squeezing into the
elevator right after the door started opening and slammed the button for level
11. Cameron and
Samantha were sitting in “Sam, when
was the last time you talked to “Uh…I don’t
know…I guess it has been a while since he and I talked.” Sam answered distractedly. “I guess it was about a month or so ago.” “A month, Sam, are you sure it has been about a month?” “Yeah, that
is right.” Sam said starting to think
back to recall the last time she had spent talking to Daniel. “It was right after you and I ….” “You and I
started dating.” “What,
no. We are best friends, like brother
and sister.” Sam said looking
confused. “Why would you ask that?” All further
conversation stopped as Sam and Chapter 3 Sgt.
Harriman had just been notified by one of the gate guards that Dr. Lam and an
orderly had taken one of the ambulances and was in route to Dr. Jackson’s house
on a medical emergency. Grabbing up the
phone Walter called the General’s home number. “This is
Landry and this better be important.”
General Hank Landry answered the phone that was ringing by his bed. “Sir, this
is Sgt. Harriman.” Walter responded
professionally. “I was calling to inform
you that there is a situation developing.” “What kind
of situation?” Hank demanded trying to
get himself fully awake. “Sir, Dr.
Lam is in route to a medical emergency at Dr. Jackson’s.” Walter responded. “Did Dr.
Jackson call in requesting medical aid?”
Hank asked now fully awake. “From my understanding, no sir.” Harriman replied. “Sir, I think it may be related to Dr.
Jackson turning in his resignation.” “His what? Dr.
Jackson has not handed me anything of the sort.” Landry responded confused. “Yes sir,
he has, sir.” Walter replied
nervously. “He put it on your desk about
0230 this morning.” “Ah hell, I
am on my way in to get to the bottom of this.”
Hank swore hanging up the phone.
“What in the hell is going on?” Chapter 4 Dr. Lam
didn’t even wait for the ambulance to come to a stop when she bolted out the
door and up the sidewalk to Daniel’s house.
She was just starting to bang on the door when she heard tires
screeching behind her and turned to see “Carolyn,
what is going on?” Sam shrieked when she
was within hearing distance. “What is
wrong with Daniel?” “I am not
sure, Col. Carter, but from a report I was given, Daniel may be experiencing
some kind of cascade event.” Carolyn
said with a desperate air to her voice. “What? How?” Sam cried out looking from Lam to her lover
who was unlocking Daniel’s door. Just as
Cameron managed to get the last lock unlocked, Sam bolted through the barely
open door causing it to fling wide open.
Hot on her heals were Lam, Mitchell, and the orderly; everyone headed
for Daniel’s bedroom. They all came to a
skidding halt when they reached the Daniel’s bedside. Sam letting out a cry of
despair. Laying sprawled out across the bed was Daniel, face down and
not moving. Pushing past Sam and moving
to Daniel’s side, Carolyn felt for a pulse and could just barely make on
out. Issuing orders for the orderly to
fetch a gurney, Lam motioned for Cameron to help her roll Daniel over so she
could check him out better. One second Looking up
from his hands to Dr. Lam for confirmation of what just happened; Mitchell
could see that Lam was crying. “It is
getting worse.” was all he could make out between sobs as she continued to try
and turn Daniel over. Trying once more
to grab his arms, Cameron found them to be solid again and flipped him as
quickly as he could. Below where
Daniel’s face had been, the bed was covered with blood that was leaking from
his closed eyes. “Holy crap!” Cameron
yelled jumping back. “What is going on
Dr?” Before
Carolyn answered, the orderly had returned with a gurney and was pushing past
Samantha and Cameron to get the gurney close to the bed. Moving quickly, the orderly grabbed Daniel up
and placed him on the gurney as Lam shifted over and started buckling the
straps to hold Daniel in place. Jumping
up from the bed, Lam and the orderly rushed from the room and off to the
ambulance. Turning
from looking at the bed where Daniel had just been towards Sam, Carolyn was
working furiously in the back of the Ambulance to try and get Daniel’s pulse
up, but nothing was working. It seemed
that every time she attempted to inject him using a needle, that portion of his
body would cascade. The process was so
fast and random that she had no idea what to do. She could only hope that they managed to get
to the SGC quickly enough and have a chance to inject him with something that
could get his pulse up…maybe that would slow the cascading down. If nothing else, they did have a stasis
chamber left by the Asgard. Chapter 5 Colonel
Cameron Mitchell did not dare say a thing to his lover as she drove like a
woman possessed. He had never seen her
drive like this or seemingly so gone before, he was quite frankly scared. Facing Goa’uld, Replicators, Ori, and Wraith never seemed to put so much fear and worry
into his lover as seeing Daniel like that did.
Hell, it had him shocked and he had only known the guy for about 4
years. What could it be like for Sam,
who had been close to Daniel for more than 12 years? Sam
silently cursed herself; she felt so completely out of control at the moment,
but could not seem to rein it in. Seeing Daniel laying face down and not moving; then Mitchell
could now see tears rolling silently down Sam’s cheeks. He wanted to bad to reach over and hold her,
to take that pain away and dry the tears.
But, he did not want to break her concentration on her driving by
touching her and causing her to be startled.
She was so far away from him, mentally and emotionally, that he could
feel it. He had known over the past
month that she was not in love with him, was that why she reacted so badly to
the news about Daniel resigning? Was
that now why she was so zoned out and driving like the devil himself was on
their tail? General
Landry arrived at the base to find out from the front guard that Dr. Lam was
already on her way back with Daniel in critical condition. Cursing a blue streak to him self, Landry
yanked his cell phone out of his pocket as he headed down to the infirmary to
await their arrival. Receiving nothing
but a busy signal on Colonel Carter’s cell and no answer on Colonel Mitchell’s,
Landry stopped by a phone on the wall and ordered Sgt. Harriman to get a hold
of the Prometheus and use their transmitter signals to find them. He also ordered for Dakara to be dialed and
Teal’c to be informed immediately, as well as to call General O’Neill. Daniel better not have
done something to himself after turning in his resignation or there was going
to be hell to pay all the way around. Jack’s
phone in DC rang and rang, but he did not answer it, he was too busy making
love to his wife, Sarah, to be bothered…they would leave a message. Chapter 6 Cameron
looked back over his shoulder as the passed the ambulance on the way back to
the mountain. Looking over to his still
zoned out and crying lover, Waking to
where they now where, Sam slammed on the brakes and fishtailed the car around
to almost being parked in an empty space.
Not even bothering to turn off the engine, Sam jumped out of the car and
dashed off to where she knew the ambulance would be heading. She was almost to the entry point when the
ambulance flew past her and came to a halt right where she expected. Her mind was so frantic with worry and
self-recrimination that she barely remembered to flash her ID as she followed
Dr. Lam and the orderly pushing Daniel’s gurney towards the elevator. Cameron
calmly reached over and turned the engine off.
Sitting in the car, he knew that he should be rushing after Sam, but he
just couldn’t seem to bring himself to do it.
He knew things between he and Sam wouldn’t last, they hadn’t the first
time around…but he didn’t think it would end so quickly. He had tried to ignore it, but he always knew
there was more between Jackson and Sam than what either admitted to. She would be devastated if General
Landry was on a call with Walter being informed that the locaters for Colonels
Mitchell and Carter indicated that they were in the mountain, that Teal’c
should be heading in from Dakara at any moment, and that there was still not
response from General O’Neill, when he heard the sound of people running and
the squeaking of the wheels of a gurney being pushed very rapidly. Hanging up the phone after telling Walter to
keep trying Gen. O’Neill, he hung up and turned to see his daughter running
beside a gurney with Dr. Jackson laying still on it, and orderly pushing the
gurney at a quick clip, and a very distraught Col. Carter following them. As he stood watching as the gurney was moved
into one of the med bays, his eyes flew open at seeing what appeared to be Dr.
Jackson’s body oscillating between being solid and being opaque. Carolyn
waited, watching as the spot on the arm that she wanted to inject became opaque
and then solid again. Just as the arm
finished rematerializing, she pushed the needle home and slammed the plunger
down. Quickly hooking up the heart
monitor, she was relieved as it showed her patient’s heart rate start to
climb. As the rate neared a normal
range, the cascade affect seemed to tapper off and she let out a long
sigh. All she could do now was watch and
hope that he came around long enough for her to talk to him. If he didn’t, she was going to have him
beamed into the Asgard stasis chamber until they could figure something out. Looking
over her shoulder, Carolyn could see her dad looking worried and shocked
standing next to Sam who was in tears and looked to be holding onto sanity by a
thread. Closing her eyes for a second to
compose her self, Dr. Lam pulled up her professional mask and turned and walked
over to the two people waiting to speak with her. Since, for all purposes she outranked her dad
where the infirmary was concerned she did not come to attention or salute when
she closed to within several feet of the base CO. Chapter 7 Not wishing
to have to deal with all the crap that ranks seems to create, Landry decided to
get directly to the heart of the issue.
“Carolyn, what is going on?” Taken
slightly off by her father’s directness, Lam took a moment to gather her
thoughts. “In a nutshell, Daniel is
dying.” Hearing it
put so bluntly, Sam gasped and starred at Carolyn with horror in her eyes. “You can’t mean that, you must be able to do
something to save him.” Shaking her
head, Carolyn looked down at her feet to try and regain her failing
composure…things were so much simpler when you could hide behind a professional
mask. “I am afraid I can’t. Daniel has been sick for a while and has
known about it and hid it from everyone.
He recently sought out medical consultation from a specialist in “But, a
neurological disorder would not be causing him to cascade like he is.” Sam stated obstinately. Looking
from Sam back to his daughter, Hank figured there was more going on with both
women than was evident on the surface.
Figuring Sam’s to be personal; he turned to his daughter for the medical
information. “You think there is
something more to it than what he was diagnosed with, don’t you Carolyn?” “After
reviewing some of our records that were collected from the Asgard database on
the Odyssey, I think that Daniel has been suffering a form of what the Asgard
had.” Carolyn said in a lowered voice. “You are
telling me that Daniel is dying of what was killing off the Asgard? But how is that possible?” Hank asked becoming concerned with contagion. “I think
that, because of Daniel’s somewhat altered genetics due to his ascensions and descensions…it was enough for the Asgard affliction to pass
to him. It has just taken longer to
gestate.” Carolyn said attempting to
blink back tears that were prickling her eyes.
“I know that he has been complaining about headaches since that time,
but it was chalked up to stress and long work hours.” “That
doesn’t make sense.” Sam said growing
agitated. “That was almost a year
ago. He has had dozens of tests with all
of the missions we went on since then.” “Nothing
showed up in his blood till recently.”
Carolyn said taking a breath.
“The symptoms that Daniel sought medical advice about did not start till
about a month ago.” “What
symptoms?” Hank asked growing more
concerned. “Muscle
tremors, more severe headaches, blood seepage.”
Carolyn counted off trying to keep herself under control. “Blood
seepage? From where?” Hank asked. “Mostly, his tear ducts and ears; some from his nose and mouth.” Carolyn replied clenching and unclenching her
fists. “Have you
witnessed any of this during the past month?”
Hank asked addressing Sam. “No sir, I...I haven’t
talked to or seen Daniel much in the past month.” Sam said feeling like she wanted to faint. Knowing the
answer, Carolyn turned away so that her father would not see that she
knew. Sometimes he could read her easier
than one of his battle reports. Having just
stepped through the door, Cameron heard the question asked by Landry to
Sam. “That would be because of me, sir.” Spinning
around to the voice that just claimed to be the reason for Sam and Daniel not
speaking, Hank was slightly surprised to see it belonged to Cameron Mitchell. Chapter 8 Having been
trying to go to sleep after spending time with his wife, Jack was becoming very
annoyed that his cell phone was once again ringing. He had already unplugged his apartment phone
and turned off his pager. Growling in
annoyance, Jack grabbed the offensive device from his nightstand and was about
to throw it at the wall when he noticed the name of the caller, SGC. “This had
better be damned important!” O’Neill
bellowed into the phone, waking Sarah in the process. Taken aback
by the gruffness of the person on the other end, Walter fumbled for what to
say. “Uh, sir, this is Sgt. Harriman at
the SGC. Sorry to disturb you, but
General Landry wanted me to call you and let you know we have an issue.” “What kind
of issue sergeant?” Jack said scrubbing
and hand down his face while Sarah looked at him, irked. “Dr.
Jackson has been brought into the infirmary in a medical emergency, sir.” Walter replied not liking to be the delivery
person of this message. “It was shortly
after he turned in his resignation this morning.” “WHAT?” Jack yelled.
“What is wrong with Daniel? And
what is this about him resigning?” Seeing that
her husband was becoming very angered and seemingly worried simultaneously,
Sarah started rubbing her hand up and down his left arm to try and sooth him. “About 0230
this morning, Dr. Jackson entered and exited Gen. Landry’s office. When I went in to check the office and found
a red folder on the General’s desk.
Checking to see if it was something to be filed, I opened it and found
Dr. Jackson’s resignation letter.” Walter said taking a quick breath. “About 5 or 10 minutes after that I was
informed by the SFs up top that Dr. Lam and an
orderly had rushed off to Dr. Jackson’s house in an ambulance on a medical
emergency. 30 minutes after that she came
back to base and took Dr. Jackson directly to the infirmary. I have been trying to contact you since right
after Dr. Jackson turned in the resignation letter.” “Shit!” Jack said jumping up for the bed and heading
to his closet for clothes. “Do you know
how Daniel is now?” “No
sir.” Walter replied taking a gulp. “I was ordered by General Landry to contact
Teal’c and get him here from Dakara, and to locate Colonel’s Carter and
Mitchell using their transponders because they could not be reached by phone
since my initial call to Colonel Carter.” “Initial call?” Jack
asked pausing in getting dressed. “Yes sir,
after Dr. Jackson turned in the resignation, I attempted to contact Colonel
Mitchell first as his CO, and then Colonel Carter as one of his teammates to
let them know.” Walter said getting
worried. “Walter,
listen…is the Odyssey in orbit?” Jack
asked knowing he was about to break some major rules. “Yes
sir.” Walter replied figuring where this
was going. “Give me 5
minutes, and then beam me straight to the SGC infirmary.” General O’Neill ordered. Gulping,
Sgt. Harriman responded. “Yes sir…5
minutes and counting sir. I will relay
the order to the Odyssey immediately.” Hanging up
the phone, Jack continued pulling on his jeans and a t-shirt as he headed over
to talk to Sarah. “What is
going on Jack?” Sarah asked worried. “Something
has happened to Daniel, he is in the SGC infirmary.” Jack said sitting down on the bed to pull on
his shoes, and then turning to look at her.
“I have to go.” “Yes, oh god yes.”
Sarah replied. “I hope everything
works out.” “So do I.” Jack said shaking
his head. “So do I.” As Jack
stood up from the bed, he prayed that everything would work out. Just as he smiled to his wife, he was surrounded
in a bright light and disappeared from his apartment in DC to arrive in the
middle of the infirmary. Spinning
around and facing towards the source of the sudden flash of light, Sam and
Carolyn both squeaked at seeing Jack being teleported in. Landry and Mitchell smirked. “Where is Daniel?” Jack demanded. The
announcement of off-world activation over the base intercom forestalled any
further talk. Chapter 9 Landry was
glaring at Mitchell, Sam was looking at Mitchell with shock on her face, and
Jack was looking from one face to another as the sound of heavy boots echoed
down the hallway. In a matter of
minutes, Teal’c burst through the infirmary doors at a dead run and came to a
sudden halt right behind Mitchell. “What has happened to DanielJackson?” Teal’c demanded in his deep baritone. Seeing the brewing of a sizable
blowout, Dr. Lam took charge of her domain.
“Alright, everyone out if you are going to start yelling.” She said putting one fist on her hip and pointing
at the doors with her other. “I have
enough going on in here without more stress.
General Landry, Colonel Carter, and Colonel Mitchell, I believe that you
all need to go discuss some issues while I bring General O’Neill and Teal’c
up-to-date on Dr. Jackson’s current condition.” With that being said, Landry and
Mitchell started for the door while Carter stood looking torn between staying
with Daniel and following her lover and her CO.
Looking into the face of an irate Dr. Lam, Sam’s shoulders slumped and
she followed the other two men out of the infirmary. Looking confused, Jack and Teal’c kept
looking from Lam to the infirmary doors with curiosity and worry fighting for
dominance. “What the hell was that
about?” Jack said growing frustrated. “I am not at liberty to say, they
will have to tell you if they feel it is necessary.” Dr. Lam said taking a deep breath and letting
it out. “Now, you are both here because
of your concern for Dr. Jackson I presume?” “Indeed.” Teal’c said walking up closer to the CMO. “Yeah, I left my wife in bed to
come find out what is up with my friend.
I was told there was an emergency and something about Daniel turning in
his resignation?” O’Neill stated confused
and worried. “DanielJackson
resigned, when did this occur O’Neill?” Teal’c said
rounding on his long-time friend and former teammate.
“I can answer that and the other pertinent questions that are directly
related to Dr. Jackson’s current crisis.”
Lam said interjecting into the growing tension. “Follow me while I check on Dr. Jackson’s
vitals.” Walking over to the bed that Daniel
was in, Dr. Lam took several moments to read the monitors indicating his
heart-rate, O2 level, and other monitored bio-signs. As she turned to address the waiting men,
Daniel’s heart-monitor flat-lined for several seconds as the area the pads were
placed in cascaded out and back in. Jack
and Teal’c’s -mouths dropped open and then turned on Lam as if they were
heat-seeking missiles. “What in the hell was that?” Jack demanded pointing. “That looked like an episode of
entropic cascade failure.” Teal’c said
with his eyebrows nearly jumping from his head.
“Is this not our reality’s DanielJackson?” Sighing, Carolyn dropped her head
to try once again to pull in her emotions.
“That was a cascade failure, but it was not entropic. This is our Dr. Jackson, but I do not now for
how much longer.” Holding up her hand to stall
O’Neill’s imminent outburst, she continued.
“Dr. Jackson has been suffering some moderate to severe neurological
anomalies for more than a month. He
recently sought out a specialist in “Wait, you said that Daniel has
been suffering from this for more than a month and we are just now finding out
about it? Why just now? How did you find out if he went to a
specialist in “To answer your questions, sir, we
are just now finding out because Daniel kept it under the radar by going
outside of “That does not answer about Carter
not knowing or suspecting.” Jack voiced
growing angry at his former 2IC. “Why
would she keep that to herself and not let anyone else know…that is not how she
has ever acted.” “Let me continue please.” Lam said looking up from the floor. “I found out all of this because anyone
related to this project has any and all computers that access national
databases flagged…Dr. Jackson’s came up in one of my nightly reports. I confronted him about it and he pretty much
told me to keep out of it. As to why
Colonel Carter did not inform anyone, it is because she did not know. For the particulars to that reason, you will
have to ask her as it is none of my business, but for the generality…it is
because she has not been around him for about a month.” “That is unlikely as DanielJackson and ColonelCarter
have always spent much time in one another’s company, especially where work is
related.” Teal’c said looking his ever
stoic self. “Well, nobody has seen much of Dr.
Jackson this past month.” Dr. Lam
replied. “He has either been holed up in
his office working, or off on his own during the time he is not here. As to why Dr. Jackson and the Colonel have
not been around one another, that is for them to tell or not.” “Okay…what about the fact that
Walter told me that Daniel turned in his resignation?” Jack said trying to reign in his temper. “That, from what I was told,
occurred before I received a call from an SF monitoring the elevators when he
witnessed a cascade event involving Dr. Jackson. That was after I had just finished looking
into the Asgard records about their fatal disease.” Dr. Lam responded starting to lose some of
her control. “I rushed to Daniel’s
because I suspected where things were headed.” Chapter 10 Having
headed into one of the isolation rooms to find out what Colonel Mitchell had
meant back in the infirmary, General Landry waited until Colonel Carter and
Colonel Mitchell were in the room with the door closed before spinning around
with anger in his voice. “Okay, what the
hell did you mean by that was your fault Colonel Mitchell?” Taking a
big gulp of air and trying to still his nerves, Mitchell looked over at his
lover, Samantha Carter, before turning back to the General to answer his
question. “Carter has not been around
base this past month to spend time around His eyes
going wide in surprise, Landry darted looks between Carter and Mitchell waiting
for further explanation. “Go on.” Sam, seeing
that she and “You mean
to tell me that two of my most renowned and highest ranking officers have been
fraternizing?” Landry said in disbelief
and anger. “Surely that is not what you
are telling me.” “Actually,
sir, since SG1 was disbanded…Colonel Mitchell and I are
no longer in any kind of chain-of-command.”
Colonel Carter replied squaring her shoulders. “What he and I do outside of the confines of
the base are our discretion alone.” Taking a
moment to pull himself back from really exploding,
Landry gave Carter’s statement a few seconds to set in. “In the basics of what you say there is
truth, however, since you both are still under my command, it is I who
determines what is and what is not fraternization.” “Yes
sir.” Carter responded feeling the
chastisement. “Yes
sir.” Mitchell answered. “Sir, we can not be held accountable for what
has happened to “While that
is also a true enough statement, Colonel, as former teammates and supposed
friends…you two should have been the first to notice something was out of the
ordinary with him.” Landry said
scrubbing his face. “But now is not the
time to get into this further. I think I
am going to go to my office and see what exactly Dr. Jackson put in that
resignation letter.” With that, Landry
opened the door and left. “Oh god.” Sam said
sliding down the wall to hug her knees.
“Daniel has resigned and is now dying, and I knew nothing about any of
this because I was so wrapped up in my own life that I forgot about him.” “Sam,
neither you nor I knew anything about any of this.” “Yes I can “How can
you figure that, Sam?” “You do not
know him like I do Taken back
by this last part of her statement, and putting this together with what he
figured out in his car, Looking up
through her tears, Sam nodded her head.
“I am sorry “Sam, I
understand, and kind of realized that on the car ride over here.” Cameron said sighing and sitting down. “We have never told one another that we loved
each other, and we have been in this kind of relationship before. While I will not say that this does not hurt,
I understand. You have known Jackson
for a long time, and I always thought there was something more going on with
you two…I just never figured it was that deep.” “I am so
sorry “It is
okay, I think I will wait here for a bit.”
Cameron said sighing and nodding his head. “Go see Jackson
before it is too late.” Chapter 11 As Carolyn,
Jack, and Teal’c were watching over Daniel as he lay in the infirmary bed, Sam
quietly entered and was standing behind them listening. Daniel’s restful sleep quickly changed to one
of restlessness and Daniel began murmuring in his sleep. Jack looked from Lam to Teal’c when he
noticed that both of Teal’c’s eyebrows where up into his hairline. “T, do you
understand what Daniel is saying?” Jack
asked worried. “I
do.” Teal’c said dropping his head for a
minute before looking back up, only the twitching muscles in his jaws gave
evidence that what he had heard was upsetting.
“DanielJackson is speaking in Goa’uld, begging
for the Lord of Death to take him into oblivion and lock his soul away so that
it will not be reborn.” “What?” Carolyn gasped. Jack looked
like he was about ready to punch someone, probably Daniel himself had he been
in a condition to understand. “That is
insane, what has gotten into him!” A gasp from
behind them had everyone spinning around to see that Sam was standing there
crying and having overheard what Teal’c had translated. More
murmuring from Daniel brought Teal’c’s attention back to his former teammate as
he listened. The fact that Teal’c was
standing rigid and squeezing his eyes closed told Jack that what ever it was
was not good. “T?” Jack asked. “DanielJackson is reciting names.” Teal’c replied without elaboration. “Okay, I
get that, but that does not seem like enough to cause you to be seemingly like
you are about ready to perform disembowelment on someone.” Jack said becoming alarmed. Taking a
moment to pull him self back together, Teal’c continued to only stare at his
passing friend before speaking again.
“Before the recitation of names, he said: “She has always seen them, and never me. They were who she wanted and never me.”” “What names
and who is this, she?” Jack asked
starting to have a sinking feeling. “The names
he has said are: Jack, Martouf, Lantash,
Joe, Narem, Pete, and The sound
of running feet and the infirmary doors slamming open and closed once again had
everyone, except Teal’c, spinning around to see what was going on. Jack look confused at seeing that Sam was not
there any longer. “Where did Carter go?” Jack asked looking
at the other two. “ColonelCarter
figured out that “she” was the one being talked about by DanielJackson.” Teal’c said looking sorrowed. Taking a minute to digest what
Teal’c had said, the names, and Sam’s actions…Jack dropped his head. “Oh crap!
Wait, why was Mitchell’s name in that list?” Spinning to look at Lam, Jack
adopted that you-better-spill-it look and leveled it straight at her. Dr. Lam, seeing that Jack was using
that look that demanded and answer or there would be hell to pay let out a deep
sigh. “The scuttle-butt around base has
been that Colonel Carter and Colonel Mitchell have been involved in a personal
relationship for the past month. It has
been rumored that Daniel saw them kissing one day as they got into Cameron’s
car before leaving base.” “Ah Fuck!” Jack said as he stormed out of the infirmary
in a fit of anger. Chapter 12 Jack was
marching his way down the hall in a state of complete anger, feeling like
punching the ever living lights out of anyone that crossed his path. He was just passing one of the isolation
rooms when Cameron Mitchell stepped out of the room. Before thought even crossed his brain, Jack
lashed out and slammed his fist into the side of Mitchell’s jaw, knocking the
man to the ground. Fuming Jack stood
there waiting for Mitchell to either get up or to give him another reason to
punch him. Taken off
guard by a punch from nowhere, Cameron looked up from where he landed on the
ground as he shook off the ringing in his ears.
Seeing O’Neill standing there with his fists clinched at his sides, he
figured out who punched him. “What the
heck was that for?” “What was
that for? That was for Daniel, because he would not do it himself!” Jack roared.
“Now get up so I can knock your block off again for putting Daniel in
the infirmary.” “What, I
didn’t do anything to “I can
blame you because I just found out that Daniel saw you and Cater kissing before
Carter and you got into your car to leave base together over a month ago.” Jack
growled. “That was probably the same day
that he decided to hide the fact that he had been having health problems.” “How can
you blame me for that?” “Because,
after everything Daniel has been through…it has always been Carter that he came
back for.” Jack said starting to calm
down. “After his first ascension and he
had no memories, it was Carter that talked him into returning. After he got his memories back about his late
wife, it was Carter that he sought out to deal with the pain. After Carter’s duplicate killed him, it was
still her that he sought out for help.
After my trip to the dark side to stop the theft of alien tech, it was
Carter that was there to hold Daniel together in face of my betrayal. Because it was Carter that Daniel told me he
loved after getting drunk at my bachelor party.” “Then why
didn’t “You do not
know Daniel very well if you have to ask that question.” Jack said taking a step away so he would not
feel tempted to punch Mitchell again.
“Daniel would not risk losing her friendship over what he felt were
unrequited feelings. Because
to Daniel losing her friendship would be tantamount to losing his very soul. Did you and Carter ever once attempt to stop
by and see Daniel in his office or at home during the past month, or were you
two busy with each other to even think of someone that was supposed to be a
teammate and a friend?” Blanching
at the question and the realization that they had both ignored “I thought
not.” Jack barked. Hearing a
scuffle in the hallway, Teal’c and Lam came out of the infirmary to
investigate. Upon seeing that Mitchell
was rubbing his jaw and Jack was standing back with his fists still clenched,
Teal’c approached cautiously. “O’Neill,
what has happened between ColonelMitchell and your
self?” Teal’c asked in a calm yet
demanding voice. Not even
turning his gaze from looking at the person he blamed the most for all of this
mess, Jack replied. “Nothing T, I was
just talking to Mitchell here. Why don’t
you go find Carter and see if she is alright?” “If you are
sure there is nothing wrong, I will do so.”
Teal’c said bowing and turning the other direction for the elevator to
go to level 18 where he figured Sam would have gone to her lab. Lam, not
being as familiar with O’Neill approached the two men and examined Mitchell’s
swollen jaw. Turning her head to look at
the General with scorn, she raised her voice.
“Was it necessary for you to attempt to dislocate or break his jaw to
talk with him?” “Yes.” Jack
replied simply as he spun on his heels and continued down the hall, this time
heading for the locker room. Shaking her
head, Lam took a sullen Colonel Mitchell by the elbow dragging him back into
the infirmary. Chapter 13 Teal’c was
walking down the hallway on level 18 heading for Sam’s lab when he detected
sobs coming from Daniel Jackson’s office as he passed it. Pausing and listening carefully, he decided
that the sounds were indeed coming from Daniel’s office and pushed open the
door that sat ajar. Peering inside,
Teal’c could make out a person huddled in Daniel’s chair behind his desk. Stepping inside and pushing the door closed,
Teal’c dropped his voice low so as not to spook the person. “Is that
you ColonelCarter?”
Teal’c asked quietly. “Go
away. Leave me alone.” Sam said between sobs. “I can not
do so, ColonelCarter.
I came to ascertain if you needed my assistance.” Teal’c tried to say soothingly. “I don’t
want any help, T. I don’t deserve it
after what I have done to Daniel.” Sam
wailed. Taking a
seat in the chair on this side of the desk, Teal’c folded his hands in his lap
and gathered his thoughts while examining his own feelings on the matter. “ColonelCarter, you
are not to be blamed for DanielJackson being ill or
for his reluctance to seek medical aid for his condition.” “Yes I am
Teal’c, I am to blame.” Sam said with
self hate in her voice. “I broke his
heart and didn’t know it. I ignored him
while I was selfish. Daniel would never
have done that to me.” “While it
may be true that you broke DanielJackson’s heart, you
did not do it intentionally. As for
ignoring him, I am as guilty of that as anyone as I left Earth and my friends
to spend time on Dakara.” Teal’c spoke
solemnly. “You were not able to know
that DanielJackson knew of your and ColonelMitchell’s involvement with one another. You viewed your time with him as a private
matter, so that was not selfish.” Sniffing
back tears, Sam sat up and looked at Teal’c through puffy eyes. “It is not the same Teal’c, you left Earth to
help the “It was
reported that DanielJackson happened upon ColonelMitchell and yourself as you were engaged in a kiss
at ColonelMitchell’s car prior to leaving the base some
time back.” Teal’c replied evenly. Sam’s mind
starting putting pieces together as fast as it usually did and she gasped. “Oh god, he saw us and figured it out. That must have been when we first got
together. That was probably when he
started locking himself up in his office.
No wonder I never saw him in the cafeteria and he never came around my
lab.” “Knowing DanielJackson, those would be valid assumptions.” Teal’c replied still keeping his voice even
and calm. “T, I
didn’t realize that I am in love with Daniel till tonight after I heard he had
resigned.” Sam said starting to sob
again. “I started thinking about how I
would never see him again if he left the program and it hurt so deeply. I have been so caught up in having someone to
go home with at the end of the day that I didn’t even stop to think of how
Daniel has been dealing with everything lately.
He probably thinks that I am in love with “I have
known that you and DanielJackson have felt deeply for
one another for a long period of time, feelings more than simply friendship or
that of siblings.” Teal’c said bowing
his head. “I had hoped that you both would
figure this out before it was too late, which I fear is now the case.” “Why didn’t
you ever say anything?” Sam asked
stunned. “It was not
my place; it was something that you both had to discover and acknowledge on
your own.” Teal’c replied. “DanielJackson
spoke of his feelings for you during the pre-marriage ritual for O’Neill; I had
hoped that he would approach you with those feelings once he had figured them
out. Such was not the case.” “Oh god,” Samantha
started, “He didn’t have a chance, it was the day after Jack and Sarah got
married that Alarms
going off in the hallway stopped any further conversation. The announcement over the intercom for SG1 to
report to the infirmary had Teal’c and Sam sprinting up
the hallway as if they were under fire.
Taking the stairs instead of waiting for the elevator, Sam and Teal’c
approached the infirmary from one side as they saw Jack coming from the
other. As if still working as a team,
they all burst through the doors and came to an immediate halt. All of the
monitors connected to Daniel were going off in alarm and Daniel looked like
someone had shot him with a zat. He was convulsing and cascading in and out of
existence at an alarming frequency.
Mitchell had been pushed back out of the way by Dr. Lam and an orderly
as nurses rushed around the room. Over
where one of the other beds had been everyone spotted an Asgard stasis chamber
sitting open. “What
happened?” Jack yelled over the noise. “His
heart-rate dropped low again and the cascade started back up.” Dr. Lam yelled in between other orders. “We can’t get a lock on him or stabilize him
so I am going to have to put him in stasis. Grabbing a radio that had been
hanging on her belt, Lam started yelling into it. “Odyssey, this is a medical emergency. Lock on to Dr. Jackson’s transponder and
teleport him into the stasis chamber now!” After several seconds the radio
blared back. “Sorry ma’am, we can not
get a lock. His signal keeps breaking
up.” “Shit!” Cameron yelled out as he grabbed the radio
and jumped on the bed next to the convulsing Archeologist. “Odyssey, lock on to my signal and
transport…I have A sudden flash of light followed by
another had Daniel and Cameron disappear to reappear in the Asgard
chamber. An orderly helped jerk Mitchell
out of the chamber as Dr. Lam activated the controls to close the chamber. As everyone crowded around while Lam set the
controls to engage stasis, Daniel’s body stilled and then seemed to explode in
a shower of sparks. Everyone gasped in
shock and the Samantha fell to the floor unconscious. Chapter 14 Nobody who
was present that day could recall everything that happened after Daniel had
disappeared in a shower of sparks while inside an Asgard stasis chamber. Sam theorized that the stasis field either
fed into or destructively reacted with the cascade event. It did not really matter; the result was that
Daniel was gone. Teal’c had returned to
Dakara after the memorial service 3 days later, Mitchell had requested
reassignment to Atlantis, Carter had resigned from the military and returned as
a consultant, Jack had retired and he and Sarah had moved to his cabin. The one thing that everyone had agreed with
on that day was that Dr. Daniel Jackson had never submitted resignation papers. Following
the custom that Daniel had performed for Sha’re, at one year SG1 returned to
the SGC to pay their respects for their departed friend and fellow warrior; Cameron
Mitchell was not there because he had been lost to a Wraith booby trap while
exploring and old research station. As
everyone gathered in the gate room to await the words of remembrance, the gate
started dialing. Ducking off the ramp to
get clear of the vortex, armed guards took up position. Repeated attempts to close the iris failed
and everyone was on edge…was this some new threat? After the
wormhole stabilized, a person that nobody had seen in over 2 years walked
through the even horizon carrying a bundle of something in her arms. Stepping forward, SG1 smiled at the
diminutive Nox female and greeted her.
“Lya, what are you doing here? It
is good to see you, but we have not heard from the Nox is over 2 years.” Bowing her
head to each of them, Lya only smiled back ever so serenely and waited as if
expecting someone to show up. The
others, realizing that she must be waiting to see Daniel and General Hammond,
lost their smiles and grew solemn. “General Hammond and Daniel can not
be here to greet you.” Sam said sadly
trying to hold back tears. “General
Hammond died almost 2 years ago, and we lost Daniel last year.” Shaking her head, Lya smiled down
at the remaining members of SG1. “O’Neill,
Sam, Teal’c, I give you greetings from the Nox and apologize for our long
absence. There has been much going on in
the universe since your defeat of the Goa’uld, Ori,
Wraith, Replicators, and Lucian Alliance.
Many things have changed for the worlds once touched by their evil, and
even for we Nox.” Looking confused, SG1 stared at Lya
wondering what could have been going on that they were not aware of with all
their trips through the gate. Seeing the
looks on the faces of the Tau’ri, Lya took a minute before proceeding. “The Ancients decided to step in
and fix a few things that were unknown to the Tau’ri. In doing so, they asked for the Nox to help
since it was all of a healing nature. We
have taken time to do so and have just now discovered something that was most
unusual. On one of our trips, we found
an Asgard outpost, a science lab I believe you would call it, and inside a
chamber we found this.” Stepping up to Samantha and
proceeding to hand over the bundle she had been holding up till now, Sam opened
her arms to receive, automatically adopting the same positioning Lya had been
using. The sudden weight that had been
transferred into her arms had Sam readjusting her hold as the others looked on
curiously….then the bundle moved. Sam’s
eyes popped open and the others took a instinctive
step back. Only smiling deeper, Lya pulled the
covering cloth from the top half of the bundle to reveal a baby, a baby with
wisps of blonde hair. As everyone
stepped closer to examine the baby, they noticed a birthmark on the upper-right
arm that looked amazingly like the gate symbol for Earth. They were busy looking at the baby and
noticing that just above the diaper there was a faint line that almost looked
like a scar where an appendectomy would have been performed. The baby in Sam’s arms finally yawned and
stretched and opened his eyes. He had
the most beautiful blue eyes and was smiling a megawatt smile. Sam nearly dropped the baby with
the shock of recognition, Jack could only gape, and Teal’c had a smile on his
face so huge that people around him stepped back in fear. “Holy Hanna!” Sam finally gasped out. “Is this?
This can’t be.” Nodding in
acknowledgement to the question Samantha was attempting to ask, Lya
smiled. “The heart of the Tau’ri has
been returned. Look after him
well.” With a wave of her hand, Lya was
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